am blogging now after a recent argument over the phone with you.
cut the conversation short to prevent anymore misunderstandings?
maybe i think too much uh.

was looking at my cdo buddy's facebook photo album and im guessing its about this thingamajig which he did for his gf's birthday ...

which got me thinking, what have i done for chewy?

finally blogging after 21312 minutes!

well for starters im blogging on my new computer now ! yippee! its a HP Pavilion 6290d series and its pretty pretty ! heh. so i guess i wont be heading down to lan shops alone to play lan anymore ! im bringing gaming back home baby ! hahah!

spent xmas eve with chewy yesterday ! we went to dhoby xchange to play lan , then figured the coms really suck! so we went to parklane to play for about 2 hours. then we walked down to orchard central where i took a crap at this damn nice toilet and we went to 313 somerset! and as usual we had our gaming pangs again so we went to hougang green to play lan AGAIN ! thereafter we cabbed down to her cousin's and i left her to meet 05a06 guys at vivo.

i swear i never had so much fun with these guys haha, that night was fucking funny please. we stole chairs and brought it up to vivo's open air space at lv 3, drank beer and took photos acting like lians and bengs. well pictures speak ! go FB (:

then we went to xueli's place supposedly to crash but we ended up watching incredible hulk ! kenneth was damn sleepy and we went home after.

meeting girlfriend tomorrow ! its SATURDAY! I LOVE SATURDAYS (:

Ord mood (:

I'm blogging on my new phone now! iPhone 3 ga! Honestly I'm not gonna do any spell check after this t see how well iPhone copes with spelling errors and typing vigorously.

And so far so good!

Byways I jua gt back from recce reining in Thailand and I met chewy baby forthe first time after two and a half weeks! She said she was afraid things will turn out awkward and all...

Honestlyni dun see why would it be awkward eh. Anyways! We had brunch over at ya Kim at hougang mall and we played l4d again! Heh! After that we had this inane urge t so some dog shopping so we canned down t pasir ris farmway t pet hotel t see puppies!

The forstnpuppy we cme across was this really cute and lively Pomeranian Cnut it was super pricey at $2200 eh! After that we went down several kennels t check out other dogs and we chanced upon mini Maltese, shihtzu and Japanese spitz! I swear, at $1600 the janese spitz was really quite a steal! Either that or I'm looking toward Gehrig a Maltese priced at $1000.

I hope that et farm is not a ripOff!

Baby was feeling rather moody today, lest thatone hour or so that we spent at the dog farm... Other than that she was pretty moody, which made me feel rather uneasy as well):

chompchomp date / saturday's could have been zoo date .

friday 15/05/09

i am on off today , so i decided to pick chewy up from school and go to chomp chomp @ serangoon gardens to have dinner since she wanted to go there so badly! we took the train back to compass and i waited for her to change ! decided to go ya kun to have its set b ( butter sugar , poached egg and coffee ) and i tell you , ya kun has been getting to me lately! i love its poached eggs!

then it started to really pour, and chewy had to bring the brolly down. it kinda damped our mood but nonetheless we made our way there ! took the train to punggol and took bus 136 to serangoon gardens. the worst thing was we didnt know where to alight and we ended up alighting 2 stops earlier! ): but oh wells, what is a short walk before dinner to work up an appetite ? (:

at serangoon gardens circle , we didnt know where chomp chomp was so we went to ask around at macdonalds, which the manager so kindly pointed me in the right direction. when we reached, i settled baby down and went about buying all the food that she mentioned she wanna eat when we were having our stroll! we had stingray, oyster omelette, chicken wings, pineapple and sugercane juice and prawn noodles!

and i admit i was very blur! baby said she wanted prawn noodles when she actually mean hokkien mee. so when i ordered prawn noodles and went like : "see i remembered you wanted this " she was like, no i didnt even mention bout this i swear!

oh wells (:

and we went to pet lovers' centre after ! there was this dog in the cage waiting for its turn to be groomed. when it saw us enter the shop it turned to look at us with thouse cute puppy eyes! AND IT SUDDENLY LUNGED AT THE GLASS PANEL AND STARTED SCRATCHING AND BARKING! CRAZY! and there was this rabbit that was so very fond of jumping out of its glass enclosure cause chewy found it stuck between the compartment and the glass panel! its head was wedged in-between! cute!

then we saw the fro-lick shop again and we decided to give it a try. i didnt know it was yoghurt and i swear i hated it so much! yoghurt smells so... rotten i swear. pee-eeew!

and we walked back to lor chuan to take bus, this time round we took 853 to serangoon mrt and took the train home. (:

and we were both looking forward to sat's zoo outing (:






which didnt materialize afterall cause apparently we used up our "meet once a week only" . oh wells, her parents didnt allow and here i am stucked in my house blogging!
it was quite disappointing but there's nothing that phone calls cant do right ? (:


gonna call her soon! (:

titled.

i wont be seeing you on the 2nd and 3rd may cuz i be confined in camp.
and i wont be able to see you on the 9th and 10th may cause you have to focus on your exams!
i`ll only be able to see you on the 16th and 17th may eh.

a little bit of arithmetric here and there
that sums up to about 21 days. without seeing you!

THATS CRAZY.
and your parents disallow us to meet on weekdays cause of your studies, im totally okay with that.
just that everything now seems so .. "wrong place wrong time "
SIGH.

i gotta learn to be strong! like how you are now. cause whenever we talk about such stuffs you be like, i got used to it already.

i haven really gotten used to it eh. this is crazy but never have i felt this way in a relationship before.

i remember then, i`ll be like not meeting gf its okay i`ll enjoy myself with my buddies then. but i cant really enjoy much now without you with me! i sound really dependent on you and all but thats the fact.

i need you. ):

TODAY IS A BIG DAY

cause today's my 8 month anniversary with chewy !

but i couldnt really go down to her place to celebrate with her ! cause its a weekday she finish school at 3:45 and and i have a birthday party cum class gathering to attend at 7pm !

i have to wait till tomorrow when she comes over ):




im going back to camp on sunday to continue with training!
damn i hope i slim down.

chewy says we can get married earlier since we know we are the one for each other!
no need to wait !
im all smiles !




on another note..
im going for my interview with NTU's division of sociology
it has a 1 hour written test
ugh!

3 more agonising days .

HAIYA.

WHY DOES IT FEEL SO FUCKED UP THIS TIME .

ALEX ITS GONNA BE ONLY 1 MONTH ! 1 FUCKING MONTH AND YOU'LL BE BACK ! JUST GO THERE AND WHIP ATEC'S ASS AND BE BACK TO CELEBRATE !

baby came over on saturday ! i whipped up a really good lunch for her ! i cooked pork chop! pizza and onion rings ! although i only prepared the pork chop myself while the other two dishes were ready made. hah

BUT ITS THE THOUGHT THAT COUNTS!

i wonder when will it be her turn to cook for me ! hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

and after that we went to alice's birthday party at east coast park !! i FELT REALLY BAD cause i didnt do a proper introduction of baby to them. and baby ended up sitting there feeling too awkward and all . ):

and i sent her home after ! we taxi which cost us 5 bucks.- just out of ECP (lol), then we stopped at some ESSO station to use the toilet. and we took 966 for 3 stops, alighted, and took taxi back to her house.

WHAT A WASTE OF MONEY HUH. HAHA.


AND I DIDNT GET TO SEE HER ON SUNDAY ! BLIMEY ):

TOMORROW !!!!

has it come to a point where..

i need to see you all the time but this feeling is not reciprocated ?

you know im fucking scared that things will change when i get back from taiwan

i think im gonna mentally prepare myself.

i put in too much effort and feelings into this relationship..
and i don wanna fall .

and to think i waited the whole week just for saturday's lunch.

and its cancelled.

i really really wanted you to come just so i can cook lunch for you ! and like we promised we`ll spend the whole afternoon sleeping. but i guess it cant work out huh.
and next sat your`re not free. im flying off on 11 march

what a letdown.

I LOVE MY LOVE AND MY LOVE LOVES ME (:

HAPPY CNY TO ALL (:

beeen really fucking lazy to blog but a new lunar year means new resolutions and keeping a updated blog is definitely one of em !

for the record , chewy and i exceeded our phone bill and our phones are gonna be confiscated . UGH. how are we gonna contact each other!

on a lighter note , its the first day of cny ! and fuck spider i haven bought a set of new clothes. did last minute shopping at taka/wisma yesterday and i only got a ck top ! FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

army really drains your life away , knnb i don even have time to go shopping for cny ! or maybe i spent all my time with my significant other.
HAH

haiyaiyai i m damn lazy to blog.
very lazy to post my life online
very lazy to type
very lazy to do anything!!!

why isnt there this microphone that transfers all speech into words ?!

nuggets !

chewy and i went to ROM today
to register our lifetime together !
unofficially that is (:
29-12-08

we are so fucking crazy ;)








and i swear , i`ve never ever been so crazy in love before!

SIGH

CHEWY is away in malayland with her family and im left alone this weekend to do god knows what .

made me realise that i`ve been spending all my weekends with her. and now without her by my side for the weekend i feel so...

empty.



SIGH ):

MONDAY :

i met the babe up at her place t go down t east coast park together... to roller blade!

hah! its been YEARS since i last bladed, it was a good 3 years ago? and my blades were all dusty! hers was still so clean please!

she had a curfew, so time was pretty tight ): we bussed down (which took an hour) and we had macs for breakfast! changed to our blades there and bladed all the way down to fort road; and back.

its my first time blading with a girl hand in hand ! and the funny thing was that our leg movements were STILL DIFFERENT. we`d move off differently in step, my left and her right. OH WELLS GO FIGURE hah

SHE ABSOLUTELY HATED SITTING DOWN TO REST!!! claimed that we`ll sweat more so we`re always on the move . then we had ice cream at new zealand's natural before changing back to our slippers. i swear our feet felt SO FUCKING GOOD AFTER TAKING THE BLADES OFF.

bussed back to her house next, not before stopping by an aquarium looking at the fishes! random!


ROLLER BLADING WITH YOU WAS FUCKING FUN BABY (:

MET THE PARENTS YESTERDAY.
chewy's one that is.
i remember, i remember. we were outside downtown east's sakura waiting for her parents. i was changing my wallpaper to that of first company's (previously it was chewy's picture and i had t leave a good impression luh. hah. go figure) i locked my phone after... chewy was like . "aye they are here ."

WTF.

well chewy's dad didnt turn out to be wad i imagined. chewy said he was round and all, i didnt think so !

so the 5 of us, chewy's parents; her brother; herself and i got seated at table 88, courtesy of her mother's choice. hah. she is somewhat similar to my mother, superstitious huh. number 88 for a table, sweet!

i kinda expected her parents to interrogate me and all, since she's so young and we barely got together ( 2mths!) but her parents were pretty warm and easy going, no problem chatting with em at all ! and the fact that im in the army, i can get along with her dad talking bout army stuffs, heh.

and then her mum asked bout the gift that chewy gave me for our 2mth anniversary (a photo frame and a letter which chewy and her made for me )

i was at a loss for words, seriously.

fuck me for this, i`ll explain here.

baby came over t camp t fetch me home again (SWEET!) and she gave me our anniversary gift which consists of a photo frame and a letter she wrote. the gift was inside this black ermenegildo zelda paper bag.

when we got up the taxi, we were sitting real tight so i passed the bag over to chewy to place it on her side. after we got off, we left in the taxi .

):

it wasnt until when we were over at my place when i wanted to check out the gift ( she didnt allow me to peek at it while she's around ) then we realised we left it inside the taxi

i swear i was so fucking heartbroken.

it was those silvertaxi toyota crown that we left it in...

PLEASE, if anyone did see it return it to ME ): or at least pass it to the taxi company so that i can retrieve it.

do you know how fucked up it is, knowing that i will never ever get to read the EXACT SAME MESSAGE, see the EXACT SAME PHOTOFRAME that chewy baby made for me. till the day i drop 6 feet under, i wont be able to see it ): not until some kind soul returns it to me...

i called the taxi company to file a lost and found report. to no avail..

that night i woke up at 0237 am, and i had received a black message from an unknown number. I WAS SO HOPEFUL thinking that it was the taxi uncle trying to reach me. i called back the number and was like

" HELLO UNCLE, HELLO ARE YOU THE TAXI UNCLE .. ? "

" im ah hong lah. "

turned out to be one of my commando buddies who accidentally send me a blank text message..

i put down the phone, and thought to myself how fucking stupid and desperate i was to get back the gift.

and tears were kinda rollin down them cheeks...


i really am fucking heartbroken.

read through my older posts and chanced upon this post

Sunday, April 06, 2008

" im glad this all ended when it just begun
cause im sure there`s someone out there that deserves my attention more than you do. "

and i was right! god gave me a chance t know chewy and i feel so lucky now (: for one she made an effort t come all the way down to my camp t fetch me after i book out! we were supposed to go to the zoo cause she loves animals so , but because i booked out late we had to make do with a trip t ikea @ alexandra t get her photo frame. i remember when we were smsing earlier the week i told her how i loved t cuddle up in her so much, and that she gives such nice hugs and all. she promised t not let go the next time we hug..

and she kept her promise ;)

and did i mention she was nice enough t accompany me to visit grandma when grandma was warded last minute ? my aunts and grandma ADORED her (:

so we cabbed down to ikea and shopped! but didnt find the photo frame to her liking! cabbed back to my place to crash ( and watch zoolander ! ) before cabbing back to tanah merah for my niece's birthday party.

happy 4th birthday shania!

i swear shania's going to be so cute when she grows up, she looks so much like her mummy! small eyes and all .


and i sent baby back home after !





sometimes i really wish i have an iphone/itouch to write notes in ;)

(:

major surprise when i got back rom brunei in the wee hours of singapore morning. when i reached the arrival gates i saw my mum and she asked me to go to the taxi stand t wait for her van to come. i remember thinkin to myself why would she not want me to go straight to the carpark with her t go home! however i was too dazed to think bout anything so i just went anyway. while walking there i saw this girl sitting there at the waiting area by herself and she looked alot like..


CHEWY!

in fact its her! stupid girl actually came t fetch me at the airport! i was at a lost for words SERIOUSLY. i walked towards her and i wanted to hug her so much and tell her so much. but at that very moment everything just failed to materialize in action(and words) apparently she stayed over at theresa's and snuck out of theresa's to meet me at the airport! i was seriously damn touched.

met her again on wednesday! the eve of her birthday. we went down to vivocity and had lunch at marche. halfway thru the dinner i excused myself to the toilet but i went to pocketful of posies instead to get her a bouquet of pink roses! when i returned back to marche and presented the roses to her , i guess her reaction was pretty shocked and all. must be at a loss for words too huh!

then we had chocolate fondue! i spread the fresh whipped cream, dipped my fork in the chocolate and wrote "alex <3 chewy" on the whipped cream! neat huh! (: its the dp right there!

then she came over to my place t visit my dad . initially she thought that my dad was those silent hostile type BUT she found him pretty nice! chalk it up for dad! we watched a dvd < life is beautiful > and went t causeway point for dinner at Breeks Cafe. no surprises for her this time round thou!

i was messaging her till 11pm plus , was supposed to stay up till 12am t wish her happy birthday and all... BUT I OVERSLEPT!

sorry honey!

once again, 2nd october 2008 , happy 16th love!

29th august. yesterday

we were supposed to study at esplanade library but we ended up walking around downtown area. the library was just too cold! we were sitting directly underneath the airconditioner!

if i didnt ask you if you were cold, i guess the both of us would have just sat there all the way! especially you silly! ;)

we walked alot! from esplanade to boat quay to clarke quay! and we sure did saw alot of happenings. heh. people-watchers.

will keep em memories and not write it out. heh.

170808 0330
chewy's. (:

chewy:

the moment we got acquainted i knew things would turn for the better
you made life in camp less mundane with your smses and MY calls (lol).
you gave me a motivation and something t look forward t in camp.
thank you, you.
you made life in camp so much more bearable (:


hearts.